My husband bought me a lovely treadmill for Christmas a few years ago. I must confess that I had rarely used it. That has all changed because I decided to add some cardio to my weight loss program lately and the treadmill comes in handy on those days when the weather isn’t nice.
I started walking!
There are a few nice ladies that walk in my neighborhood and I join them when I’m not working. Sometimes we stroll around the ‘hood and sometimes we meet at a local park and do the circuit there. It’s nice to have someone pleasant to chat with while you stroll. I enjoy our walks together because they always have the most interesting stories. That’s important when you start any new routine that is a group activity.
Always make sure the activity is something you look forward to, instead of something you dread.
When I’m on my treadmill I like to pop a book into my cd player. As I walk I can listen to someone read a best seller. This is something that makes me want to get dressed and on the treadmill because if it’s a good book, I can’t wait to hear what’s going to happen next.
Walking has solved all kinds of problems, besides burning calories.
Walking has rewired my metabolism. I am not as tired as I used to be and my joints don’t ache as much as they did. I started worrying about being so sedentary when both of my knees constantly ached. I knew part of the pain was the aggravation of carrying more weight than they ever had before, but part of it was that they just weren’t being used as much. I have always been an active person. If I wasn’t working out, I was riding my bike or gardening. I have never sat still as much as I have in the last two years. This takes a toll on any joint in your body that is accustomed to being used frequently. The last thing I wanted to go through was any kind of surgery resulting from being overweight and/or inactive. So I got up and I started moving.
When I was getting my head straight after years of dealing with numerous toxic personalities in my life, I was extremely depressed and sad about it. I know most folks thought I was pretty angry about it, and there were days I was pissed off, but honestly, I grieved the loss of every single one of those people. That might be hard to believe.
How could anyone grieve the loss of a malignant narcissist or a sociopath or an abuser?
These were people I thought were my friends. These were people I loved and I thought they loved me. Figuring out what I had allowed to happen to me all those years was mentally devastating and I didn’t want to move anymore. I didn’t want to do anything because my heart was breaking. I was being attacked on every level, my reputation and integrity were being smeared from one end of the Internet to the other, I was threatened, lied about and generally kicked in the face simply because I made personal boundaries and finally enforced them. I had participated in the devastation of my own personal relationships, simply because I had no idea who I was dealing with. So yeah, I was sad and yeah, I sat around and fed my grief with french fries and chocolates.
But that’s all over now. I can look back at those times and truly say I had some growing pains. The temptation to backslide into toxic relationships was a force to be reckoned with, but I remained strong and leaned on my real friends to see me through. These days when one of them tries to play a mindgame with me I just shrug my shoulders and keep moving forward and away from them. They still haven’t realized that their touch, their influence and their impact on my life isn’t felt anymore. I have grown beyond their grasp and I finally know that I do not need them, nor do I even want them in my life today.
Walking really works. When you’re out there taking that stroll because you want to burn calories or just get in shape, keep your face turned towards the sun and your future. Stay healthy in your mind and your body and keep walking everyday. It pays off in happiness, freedom and serenity.
They say you have to crawl before you walk and walk before you run, so I am looking forward to the day when I am finally running at full steam ahead.