you’re a bitter Old Man having your picture taken with Tori Amos

on the beach

You got my mom pregnant

before you married her.

Then  you beat on her,

threw her down the stairs

until you left.

Before you left

you cheated on her with another woman.

And you beat

on me.  

After you left

you ignored me.

You stopped

sending cards on my birthday.

You stopped

celebrating me.

You married the woman you cheated with

after she followed you here and made you leave us again.

And you’re a bitter old man having your picture taken with Tori Amos.

Trying to make everyone think you might be famous.

I tried to rebuild a friendship with you

when I started college.

But your new wife felt threatened

put a post-it on my life

and drove me away.

And you let her do it.

Because you didn’t care.

Do you beat on her too?

Do you pull her hair?

Do you leave behind bruises

that change colors like the sun setting

on a haunted mansion?

And you’re a bitter old man having your picture taken with Tori Amos.

Trying to make everyone think you might be famous.

But you’re nothing more

than a loser.

You lost my mom.

You lost me.

You lost your mom.

You lost your mind too.

And you’re a bitter old man having your picture taken with Tori Amos.

Trying to make everyone think you might be famous.

I introduced you to my love

and you hated this person I loved.

But you always hated

anything to do with me.

You pushed and you pushed

and you called me when you were drunk

and finally someone in my life

pushed you back.

You didn’t like that.

You didn’t like

being called out on your bullshit.

You didn’t like

being reminded of who you really are.

But my love pushed you back.

My love dared you to keep pushing and you

ran away scared.

And you’re a bitter old man having your picture taken with Tori Amos.

Trying to make everyone think you might be famous.

You are bitter.

You are mean.

You never

loved us.

You never

tried to.

You are a rotten, lousy, dead-beat dad.

And you’re a bitter old man having your picture taken with Tori Amos.

Trying to make everyone think you might be famous.

This might surprise you.

I am

still standing.

I am

a strong person with convictions and beliefs and ambitions.

I have

a good life.

I have

a great future.

And I am

surrounded by love.

You will never have that.

You don’t know how to have that.

It’s the only thing you ever taught me.

You taught me to look for a life filled with love.

Not by example.

You taught me

through hatred.

You taught me

through abandonment.

You taught me

through beatings.

You taught me

through negligence.

I paid attention.

So I’d never end up just like you…dad.

You’re a bitter old man

having your picture taken

with Tori Amos.

Trying to make everyone think you might be famous.

 

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About Madeline Scribes

A writer with a sense of humor. If anyone can laugh at life, it's me.
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7 Responses to you’re a bitter Old Man having your picture taken with Tori Amos

  1. whine-wine-whatever says:

    I have no words. Just hugs for those who deserve them. ❤

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